surprise! :P

so, i just got back from efy. UH-MA-ZING. but more about that later. in the mean time, we got a surprise while i was gone! no, not an engagement...and definitely not a baby. actually, my mom got the surprise. and she didn't care to share it with me until sunday morning...how nice of her. :P well, the surprise was the results from my biopsy! (you know, the one that made me bawl? yeah , that one.) well, we all thought it wouldn't be a big deal, just another normal mole (except for k...she claims she knew it all along...ha.) but my mom got the call on wednesday and it was, in fact, more melanoma! oh goody...:) i have an appointment with my absolutely incredible surgeon, dr. singh, on wednesday morning...and we'll go from there. everybody's a little perplexed as to how this happened though. because when i had my last surgery, all my margins were clear and the melanoma was outta there...but now it's back? well, my fabulous dad has a theory...which we really aren't sure if it's right, but it's a possibility. so you see, i had this other baby mole next to my melanoma-y mole last time around...k, so it was probably just a normal sized mole, not really a baby mole, but compared to gigantor, it looked pretty baby-sized. :P well, dad's theory is that this baby mole is what turned into this round of melanoma. that it wasn't melanoma back in january for the surgery, but that it's turned into it now. like i said, we don't know that that's it for sure, but we're thinking it's a distinct possibility. either way, i've got it. it would happen to me, right? my poor mother...haha-i'm pretty sure my family's having a harder time with it than i am...i cause them way too much stress. (except for k...she says she doesn't care about it at all...what a jokester. ;)) i swear i don't try. really. haha. just another adventure in the life of me...let's just take it as it comes and go with it! :) haha. thanks for all your support guys! i am so so blessed to have such amazing friends and family...it really just amazes me. Heavenly Father totally knows what he's doing...i'm soo grateful for that. i'll keep you all updated! and i'll try and get caught up on everything! haha

ps-is it bad that i didn't freak or cry or anything when mom told me the news, and then she reminded me about how senior pics were coming up...and then i cried? i'm so shallow...regardless. even if they're nothing in the long run (and i'd obviously rather be alive than have a left eyebrow for senior pictures...) i really want super cute senior pictures...so we'll see what magic we can work. :)

love always:

L